Its drizzling and grey and foggy...bit like my mood. I think I need a good dose of sunshine. Will put some music on and dance once I get the kids to school. Always puts me in a better mood.
Got a fair bit to do today. Stef poured half a jar of coffee on the floor and a bucket of water....maybe not a bucket, but certainly feels like it and poured most of the milk down the sink. Sometimes it costs a fortune to replace the stuff she wastes..Today alone its coffee, milk....adding up to about $15 ......other days its whole bottles of shampoo, washing liquid or whatever else she can get her hands on. Unless I lock it in the pantry, its fair game. How many other people have to deadlock the pantry and bike lock the fridge if they ever leave the room.
Got a lot of bookwork to do today......must be far more disciplined to get it all done this week. Sometimes working from home is difficult....especially for one as slack and lazy as I can be. I will set my timer today, do my morning routine and then hit the tasks in my diary...all with a smile on my face. It will get done....TODAY.
Brent has taken 6 yells and the threat of a bucket of water to get up this morning....at least he is up before 8.30 today...small mercies. Will talk to him tonight about handing in work and making sure he gets enough sleep.
So far I have thrown about 2 garbage bags of crap out of my room. Its getting there. I want a new doona cover.....and a new bed. On the wish list it goes. Time to make our bedroom the beautiful sanctury that it really should be. Our relationship deserves a lovely place to spend its most important times.
Jack is being a total stress head today.....I must make sure he gets a dose of ritalin before school otherwise I will get a call.
Stef is happy, but very mischievous....
Anyway...on with the day now the shower is free....hope there is some hot water left for me.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Damn Steve going away this week!
Will be like a cat on hot bricks all week....I hate Stevo having to go away but especially right now....I know.....I am driven by pure Lust lol. Perving on the parade of tradies through the house this week.....OMG! Learnt a valuable lesson last night...always wear gloves when chopping chilli...hahah...either that or dont get the horn afterwards. It took a half an hour in the shower for the tingling and burning sensation to go away!!
Anyway, on with the day...lots to do.
Its going to be a good day. I have heaps to do, and so disorganised at the moment. I really need to get back to my routines so that the house runs a bit more smoothly. My aim while Stevo is away is to get our bedroom totally cleaned out. There is a lot of stuff there that just doesnt belong in what should be our sanctuary. Things like printers that we dont need. I really want to get a buffet to put our stereo and cds in. Stef gets into the cds and fiddles with the Stereo so we cant have it in the lounge...so we really need a cupboard to lock them away. I may go to Curleys and the opshops to see what is around.
Poor Stef is all gummed up at the moment. The laxatives arent working very well..will have to up the dosage again today. She has had heaps everyday this week, but still no major action happening. The stomach is bulging.
Oh and I got my lovely new stove fitted last night. Its awesome! It has 5 burners..the middle one being a superfast wok burner which works great! HEHe...the trady looked pretty good too.
Time to get the uncooperative teenager to school.....It takes about 10 yells and a bucket of cold water to get him out of bed.....
Anyway, on with the day...lots to do.
Its going to be a good day. I have heaps to do, and so disorganised at the moment. I really need to get back to my routines so that the house runs a bit more smoothly. My aim while Stevo is away is to get our bedroom totally cleaned out. There is a lot of stuff there that just doesnt belong in what should be our sanctuary. Things like printers that we dont need. I really want to get a buffet to put our stereo and cds in. Stef gets into the cds and fiddles with the Stereo so we cant have it in the lounge...so we really need a cupboard to lock them away. I may go to Curleys and the opshops to see what is around.
Poor Stef is all gummed up at the moment. The laxatives arent working very well..will have to up the dosage again today. She has had heaps everyday this week, but still no major action happening. The stomach is bulging.
Oh and I got my lovely new stove fitted last night. Its awesome! It has 5 burners..the middle one being a superfast wok burner which works great! HEHe...the trady looked pretty good too.
Time to get the uncooperative teenager to school.....It takes about 10 yells and a bucket of cold water to get him out of bed.....
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
So much to do today
I have a lot in my diary today...but its going to be a good day, I can feel it in my bones. Its a full moon and I always work my hardest at this time...not sure why but I seem to be very responsive to the lunar shift (I know, it sounds a bit nutty..) it may also have something to do with the time of the month...
On the plan for today is......to put in 3 new job applications, catch up on the Rainbow club bookwork, heaps of washing (weather is good for drying), banking for Rainbow club, tax stuff for the supermarket, and entering stuff for the accounting firm. Then of course there is housework and the plumber is coming to install my new stove top. Then there is installing some programs on Stefs computer for her to get used to the idea that that computer is hers to use. Oh and I have to write some thankyou cards, some rsvps and a sympathy card. I must get together a correspondence card folder organised to make it easy for me to write stuff. I am so hopeless at that sort of thing and then feel guilty that I havent done it.
Brent had a day in bed yesterday.....little basketball player just wouldnt get out of bed to go to school. At 10.30am I gave up trying and let him sleep. Sometimes I reckon its not such a bad thing to give them a rest day, but he cant have too many days off being in year 11.
Stef had a happy day yesterday..came home from school very cheeky and full of laughs. She had creative dance after school and apparently really enjoyed it. A friend picked her up from school and it was good to know Stef was reluctant to go with her and took some convincing. She eventually went with her though. Its good that I dont have to make the hour round trip to pick her up though.
Apart from that, all work today.......will put on some music and get on with it!
On the plan for today is......to put in 3 new job applications, catch up on the Rainbow club bookwork, heaps of washing (weather is good for drying), banking for Rainbow club, tax stuff for the supermarket, and entering stuff for the accounting firm. Then of course there is housework and the plumber is coming to install my new stove top. Then there is installing some programs on Stefs computer for her to get used to the idea that that computer is hers to use. Oh and I have to write some thankyou cards, some rsvps and a sympathy card. I must get together a correspondence card folder organised to make it easy for me to write stuff. I am so hopeless at that sort of thing and then feel guilty that I havent done it.
Brent had a day in bed yesterday.....little basketball player just wouldnt get out of bed to go to school. At 10.30am I gave up trying and let him sleep. Sometimes I reckon its not such a bad thing to give them a rest day, but he cant have too many days off being in year 11.
Stef had a happy day yesterday..came home from school very cheeky and full of laughs. She had creative dance after school and apparently really enjoyed it. A friend picked her up from school and it was good to know Stef was reluctant to go with her and took some convincing. She eventually went with her though. Its good that I dont have to make the hour round trip to pick her up though.
Apart from that, all work today.......will put on some music and get on with it!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Monday,...a new week full of hope!
Well, its Monday morning.....a new week full of hope! I feel as if I have turned a corner this weekend. I feel happy again and relaxed and looking at planning my week out this morning.
This week will be quite busy.....there is so much I really want to do. I want to get our lives back to a place of organisation. Steve will be away a couple of nights as well. I have a few jobs to apply for....all part time hours. I realise that I dont want to work more than 20 hours a week. Its managable......I can still do all I want to for the family and work if I keep my hours strictly down to 20. Anything more and the family pay the price and so do I. I really need to get back to the creative side as well......the person who sews and cooks and makes jewellery.
On Saturday I went to a farmers market....it was great. I bought lots of apples and vege. The apples are brilliant...crunchy sweet and juicy and so much different from the ones you buy at the supermarket.
Onward...Time to start getting the kids up!
This week will be quite busy.....there is so much I really want to do. I want to get our lives back to a place of organisation. Steve will be away a couple of nights as well. I have a few jobs to apply for....all part time hours. I realise that I dont want to work more than 20 hours a week. Its managable......I can still do all I want to for the family and work if I keep my hours strictly down to 20. Anything more and the family pay the price and so do I. I really need to get back to the creative side as well......the person who sews and cooks and makes jewellery.
On Saturday I went to a farmers market....it was great. I bought lots of apples and vege. The apples are brilliant...crunchy sweet and juicy and so much different from the ones you buy at the supermarket.
Onward...Time to start getting the kids up!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Peace at last!
This last month has been so tough mentally for me. I'm not really sure why....I know I am my own worst enemy at times. I beat myself up unmercifully and I know most of the time its pretty unwarranted.
Things are starting to go right again though. I have finished the supermarket shit and have handed the files over. What a relief! HAHA, tax man will catch up to him though. He is being audited for his super payments.
I have a bit of catching up to do for the accounting firm, but will take about 10 hours this week.
There was a good job for me advertised this week.....a small part timer doing payroll for a winery. I just want a regular job, with little stress and hours according to my kids needs. Not too much to ask the universe for..Hopefully I will get it!
Anyone who truly knows me knows I have an extremely wild impulsive side...I dont let her out of the box very often anymore, but boy when I do.......hhehe....watch out world. Her name is Jay..she is the partyanimal in me. The day after I generallly feel totally at peace as if I am a whole person again.....sometimes my serious side just takes over and I feel part of my soul dying with the drudgery........that has been this month. My wild side came out last night (not saying how) and today I feel this overwhelming peacefulness and positiveness. Its so nice to have a partner in crime who loves the wild child in me and accepts Jay as a valuable jewell that she really is. She is the balancer for all the other stuff I go through. At times the wild child takes over totally (hehe, like at a certain nieces wedding where I swam in the pool at 4am in an evening dress, and drove a golf kart around a certain golf course) or the time I ran down Bourke St naked at 3am (boyfriend of the time was on camera duty at the copshop) or serve sausage rolls at a party in a small country town topless and sometimes I cringe when I realise what I have done......but mostly I look back and say......gee that was so much FUN! Jay is a party starter, she steps out of the box as an exhibitionist and say.....stuff you all! The side of my nature few people know and those who do love her. Talk about dual personalities! She is simply Jay!
Ok, back to the serious side. We had our new oven installed Friday and Steve is busy making biscuits christening it. Honestly, he is so excited about having a new oven! Oh, and we got the powerpoint in Stefs room disabled. Damn child was plugging in power cords and chewing on the wire....one day it was all going to be a disaster (we have a safety switch, but there are no guarantees on how quickly they work). Now we just have to get a plumber to install the new stove!
Brent has asked me to spruice up his appearance.....clean up his skin and give him a good hair cut. I think he is interested in a girl at school somehow...awesome! Tuesday he went to the jail with school as part of his Legal Studies and it was such an eyeopener for him. Good to see that he sees the really shitty sides of incarceration. I think all kids should go through the jail at about year 10, maybe then some of them would think twice about the stupid things they do especially in cars. They had one young man talk to them about how he killed his best mate being stupid in a car and now was in jail. Brent said the visit was really good and he didnt realise how much fencing, razor wire and bars would be inside the jail or that the prisoners couldnt use the internet, but could earn computer privileges by working and behaviour. I think these kids need that eyeopener.
Melinda has got her computer back finally. Damned Macbooks....didnt know they had problems with frying the hard drive but apparently they do big time. Thank goodness the school has a service agreement in place. This time though it was a warranty claim.
Stef has a sore eye today. I think she poked it with scissors right in the outside corner of the eyelid...hmm, new hiding spot for scissors required. We need a huge safe to put everything in at the moment. 2 jars of coffee wasted this week already, not to mention how many biscuits, apples bananas and whatever else she has got her hands on. Someitmes it feels as if we are living in a prison!
Must take Jack to the doctor this week to get a new script for Ritalin......I hate how the scripts run out after 6 months for it. I kindof am avoiding going near the quacks at the moment. I am sure had I seen him last month he would have whacked me on antidepresents..its not what I want...I gain weight with them and feel just like a walking zombie who feels nothing. I much rather prefer the ups and downs. I know I am almost bipolar......my ups are hugely up, I work manically, and have a happy craziness.......my downs though are so far down that its a bit scary..I am getting better at pulling myself out of a downward spiral though...I can at least feel them happening now and pull them up beofe it gets to the black hole that is depression. At least now I make sure I can always see the light....somewhat dimly at times, but its always at least there and I work to get back towards the light. Im back to the light now....hehe...sometimes its just a matter of letting Jay out of her box to give me the less serious side of life, pity I cant let her out all the time. The world just couldnt put up with it!
Things are starting to go right again though. I have finished the supermarket shit and have handed the files over. What a relief! HAHA, tax man will catch up to him though. He is being audited for his super payments.
I have a bit of catching up to do for the accounting firm, but will take about 10 hours this week.
There was a good job for me advertised this week.....a small part timer doing payroll for a winery. I just want a regular job, with little stress and hours according to my kids needs. Not too much to ask the universe for..Hopefully I will get it!
Anyone who truly knows me knows I have an extremely wild impulsive side...I dont let her out of the box very often anymore, but boy when I do.......hhehe....watch out world. Her name is Jay..she is the partyanimal in me. The day after I generallly feel totally at peace as if I am a whole person again.....sometimes my serious side just takes over and I feel part of my soul dying with the drudgery........that has been this month. My wild side came out last night (not saying how) and today I feel this overwhelming peacefulness and positiveness. Its so nice to have a partner in crime who loves the wild child in me and accepts Jay as a valuable jewell that she really is. She is the balancer for all the other stuff I go through. At times the wild child takes over totally (hehe, like at a certain nieces wedding where I swam in the pool at 4am in an evening dress, and drove a golf kart around a certain golf course) or the time I ran down Bourke St naked at 3am (boyfriend of the time was on camera duty at the copshop) or serve sausage rolls at a party in a small country town topless and sometimes I cringe when I realise what I have done......but mostly I look back and say......gee that was so much FUN! Jay is a party starter, she steps out of the box as an exhibitionist and say.....stuff you all! The side of my nature few people know and those who do love her. Talk about dual personalities! She is simply Jay!
Ok, back to the serious side. We had our new oven installed Friday and Steve is busy making biscuits christening it. Honestly, he is so excited about having a new oven! Oh, and we got the powerpoint in Stefs room disabled. Damn child was plugging in power cords and chewing on the wire....one day it was all going to be a disaster (we have a safety switch, but there are no guarantees on how quickly they work). Now we just have to get a plumber to install the new stove!
Brent has asked me to spruice up his appearance.....clean up his skin and give him a good hair cut. I think he is interested in a girl at school somehow...awesome! Tuesday he went to the jail with school as part of his Legal Studies and it was such an eyeopener for him. Good to see that he sees the really shitty sides of incarceration. I think all kids should go through the jail at about year 10, maybe then some of them would think twice about the stupid things they do especially in cars. They had one young man talk to them about how he killed his best mate being stupid in a car and now was in jail. Brent said the visit was really good and he didnt realise how much fencing, razor wire and bars would be inside the jail or that the prisoners couldnt use the internet, but could earn computer privileges by working and behaviour. I think these kids need that eyeopener.
Melinda has got her computer back finally. Damned Macbooks....didnt know they had problems with frying the hard drive but apparently they do big time. Thank goodness the school has a service agreement in place. This time though it was a warranty claim.
Stef has a sore eye today. I think she poked it with scissors right in the outside corner of the eyelid...hmm, new hiding spot for scissors required. We need a huge safe to put everything in at the moment. 2 jars of coffee wasted this week already, not to mention how many biscuits, apples bananas and whatever else she has got her hands on. Someitmes it feels as if we are living in a prison!
Must take Jack to the doctor this week to get a new script for Ritalin......I hate how the scripts run out after 6 months for it. I kindof am avoiding going near the quacks at the moment. I am sure had I seen him last month he would have whacked me on antidepresents..its not what I want...I gain weight with them and feel just like a walking zombie who feels nothing. I much rather prefer the ups and downs. I know I am almost bipolar......my ups are hugely up, I work manically, and have a happy craziness.......my downs though are so far down that its a bit scary..I am getting better at pulling myself out of a downward spiral though...I can at least feel them happening now and pull them up beofe it gets to the black hole that is depression. At least now I make sure I can always see the light....somewhat dimly at times, but its always at least there and I work to get back towards the light. Im back to the light now....hehe...sometimes its just a matter of letting Jay out of her box to give me the less serious side of life, pity I cant let her out all the time. The world just couldnt put up with it!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Woohoo, Its the weekend!
Ahh, its the weekend at last. Brings the usual for a Saturday...Jenny craig first thing this morning.....gott check how much weight I have gained. I really have been very naughty lately. Chocolate is my downfall. I am an emotional eater. When things arent going to plan.....I eat like a pig and all the wrong things. I really have to get it all back on track NOW!
Tonight we are going to a school friend's place for dinner. It will be fun to catch up. Its funny that although we werent particularly friends as kids, as adults we have so much in common. Oh and last night I was chatting online to a friend I lost touch with for 20 years......talk about a blast from the past. This whole week has been like it. It must have been a week of catching up to friends.
I felt a bit like a psych yesterday with a wet shoulder. Had a friend sitting at my kitchen table for 4 hours...poor girl had her husband walk out on her yet again. I didnt really know what to say...he has issues, but really they didnt spend any time making their relationship fun either. I am so glad we use our respite care on fun stuff together. For me, her issues really have pointed it out to me the importance of going out and having fun with my beautiful husband to keep us on track.
Rainbow Club this afternoon. Stef is looking forward to her swimming lesson. Last Saturday she gave me her bathers at 1pm....as if to say...hey its swimming time mum. She was so angry with me when I said no swimming this week.
I must get on to cleaning my house this morning (not that its too bad) as mum is looking after the kids tonight. I just need to get the washing on the line early and clean up the lounge which is still a mess of papers but improving.
Oh and my new oven and cooktop were delivered yesterday! Just have to get them fitted now. I can't wait to have a proper not wrecked oven. Oh and we bought a pyrolytic one......it cleans itself. Every bad asthma attack I have had has been because of oven cleaners or shower cleaners. This oven I just push a button and it will heat to 500degrees and burn everything off...then you just give it a quick wipe and voilla. NO MORE TOXIC CHEMICALS! Ok, time to get moving....time to do the morning routine to clean up.
Tonight we are going to a school friend's place for dinner. It will be fun to catch up. Its funny that although we werent particularly friends as kids, as adults we have so much in common. Oh and last night I was chatting online to a friend I lost touch with for 20 years......talk about a blast from the past. This whole week has been like it. It must have been a week of catching up to friends.
I felt a bit like a psych yesterday with a wet shoulder. Had a friend sitting at my kitchen table for 4 hours...poor girl had her husband walk out on her yet again. I didnt really know what to say...he has issues, but really they didnt spend any time making their relationship fun either. I am so glad we use our respite care on fun stuff together. For me, her issues really have pointed it out to me the importance of going out and having fun with my beautiful husband to keep us on track.
Rainbow Club this afternoon. Stef is looking forward to her swimming lesson. Last Saturday she gave me her bathers at 1pm....as if to say...hey its swimming time mum. She was so angry with me when I said no swimming this week.
I must get on to cleaning my house this morning (not that its too bad) as mum is looking after the kids tonight. I just need to get the washing on the line early and clean up the lounge which is still a mess of papers but improving.
Oh and my new oven and cooktop were delivered yesterday! Just have to get them fitted now. I can't wait to have a proper not wrecked oven. Oh and we bought a pyrolytic one......it cleans itself. Every bad asthma attack I have had has been because of oven cleaners or shower cleaners. This oven I just push a button and it will heat to 500degrees and burn everything off...then you just give it a quick wipe and voilla. NO MORE TOXIC CHEMICALS! Ok, time to get moving....time to do the morning routine to clean up.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Gotta stop being so hard on myself!
I was a long way down yesterday...nothing seemed to be going right. We all have those days, just maybe sometimes I need to be a little less hard on myself, step back and have a long hard look at the big picture.
When you do that, sometimes you realise just what you are trying to do, and when I balance it up, I probably do far more than most people. I do 5 or 6 loads of washing a day...My kitchen is clean, the floors are swept and the bathrooms are cleaned, all before 9am. There are no piles of washing clean or dirty around....just a pile of ironing to be done. I am working probably around 30 hours a week from home at the moment, catching up, but that will be under control by Monday. I am on two committees......school council, finance committee for the school and treasurer of rainbow club. I am an actively supportive friend, especially to other mum's who have special needs kids. I am quick with a cuddle and an ear and always make time for that. I am always looking for new ways to help
Stef on her journey and I talk often to each of the school teachers to find ways I can support them.
I realise though, that one thing I don't do is spend time on ME! I have been neglecting my diet, get no exercise and dont seem to find time for any creative stuff...I really need to get it in balance. Hopefully I will find more time after the end of Tuesday. Monday I hand over all of the supermarket stuff....nearly finished and I can hardly wait. Tuesday I go to the client from the accounting firm. His work is less than 2 hours from being up to date...and then......I'm FREE!!
"I am only one
But still I am one,
I cannot do everything,
But I can still do Something"
Edward Everett Hale
When you do that, sometimes you realise just what you are trying to do, and when I balance it up, I probably do far more than most people. I do 5 or 6 loads of washing a day...My kitchen is clean, the floors are swept and the bathrooms are cleaned, all before 9am. There are no piles of washing clean or dirty around....just a pile of ironing to be done. I am working probably around 30 hours a week from home at the moment, catching up, but that will be under control by Monday. I am on two committees......school council, finance committee for the school and treasurer of rainbow club. I am an actively supportive friend, especially to other mum's who have special needs kids. I am quick with a cuddle and an ear and always make time for that. I am always looking for new ways to help
Stef on her journey and I talk often to each of the school teachers to find ways I can support them.
I realise though, that one thing I don't do is spend time on ME! I have been neglecting my diet, get no exercise and dont seem to find time for any creative stuff...I really need to get it in balance. Hopefully I will find more time after the end of Tuesday. Monday I hand over all of the supermarket stuff....nearly finished and I can hardly wait. Tuesday I go to the client from the accounting firm. His work is less than 2 hours from being up to date...and then......I'm FREE!!
"I am only one
But still I am one,
I cannot do everything,
But I can still do Something"
Edward Everett Hale
Thursday, July 15, 2010
One of "those" fricking days
I'm going back to bed!
Woke up at about 3am...night sweats. Must go to the doctor as I think maybe I am premenapausal. I am waking up consistently bathed in sweat and then just can't get back to sleep again. GRRR.
Anyway.....today for the first time in 25 years I ran out of petrol. I didnt have my wallet or my phone on me either. So, I ended up walking home and then getting a cab to the petrol station and then back to my car. I was on my way to the shop to get some stuff for Stef as I had forgotten that she was at Serendip Sanctuary today instead of school and so couldnt have canteen lunch.
I was supposed to go to an appointment this morning. So I rang him to say I was going to be late, and he said in a rather pissed off voice that he couldnt see me today anyway as he didnt have the statements required with him because I hadnt confirmed our appointment by email like I was supposed to have. Oh and I found an extra pile of his stuff to do when I cleaned out my desk this morning.
So......I am going back to bed, and when I get up again, I am starting the day anew with a whole new positive attitude.
I just need to get my life organised!!
Woke up at about 3am...night sweats. Must go to the doctor as I think maybe I am premenapausal. I am waking up consistently bathed in sweat and then just can't get back to sleep again. GRRR.
Anyway.....today for the first time in 25 years I ran out of petrol. I didnt have my wallet or my phone on me either. So, I ended up walking home and then getting a cab to the petrol station and then back to my car. I was on my way to the shop to get some stuff for Stef as I had forgotten that she was at Serendip Sanctuary today instead of school and so couldnt have canteen lunch.
I was supposed to go to an appointment this morning. So I rang him to say I was going to be late, and he said in a rather pissed off voice that he couldnt see me today anyway as he didnt have the statements required with him because I hadnt confirmed our appointment by email like I was supposed to have. Oh and I found an extra pile of his stuff to do when I cleaned out my desk this morning.
So......I am going back to bed, and when I get up again, I am starting the day anew with a whole new positive attitude.
I just need to get my life organised!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Getting Back in Control!
Life is finally starting to get back under control! Anyone who truly knows me knows that I am essentially very lazy, very disorganised and a total scatterbrain at times. It wasnt a huge shock then, to finally get a diagnosis of ADHD for me. It just means I have to use tools to get my life into a form of order which is acceptable to everyone else.
A few years ago, I went to a website called Flylady.....honestly it changed our lives completely. Our house went from a total tip to pretty respectable over the course of a couple of weeks. Well, I revisited the site last week....and OMG, it has changed our lives again. Its probably what "normal" non Side-tracked Home Executives do...I just need someone to organise me because I dont do it well on my own. Anyway, the result is the same. The house is looking reasonable at least company ready (no more apologies at the door for a messy house, no more not inviting someone in because of embarrassment), the kids are less stressed in the mornings because I am more organised...and who else has 3 loads of washing on the line by 9am, the kitchen spotless, the bathrooms cleaned and the floors swept?? LOL, and the schools are even getting notes back on time and communications books written in. Gradually gradually, things are starting to come together.
Now its just a matter of finding a job thats suitable..I want to be home for the kids after school. It was costing us $200 a week for after school care...so I was working a full day per week just to cover that cost. Hmmm...where to find the elusive dream job or to start a business of my own where I can work the hours that are suitable for us.
Stef had another good day at school yesterday. She is working very well at the moment and concentrating well. Good to hear. I am going to go to the school sometime next week to show them her DS program and to try to get them to use it too. She still won't wear a helmet for her bike riding lesson at school....no helmet no bike so she misses out. I think I will write a new social story for that and of course the public toilet issue. Will talk to the Occupational Therapist at the school....make a draft of it and then take it in with me when I go in.
Brent was a lot calmer yesterday.....certainly having rosters for computer times works for him. RULES RULE!
OK on with the work....need to do the accounting firm stuff ready for tomorrow's appointment! Music is blaring and I am in the mood for work!
A few years ago, I went to a website called Flylady.....honestly it changed our lives completely. Our house went from a total tip to pretty respectable over the course of a couple of weeks. Well, I revisited the site last week....and OMG, it has changed our lives again. Its probably what "normal" non Side-tracked Home Executives do...I just need someone to organise me because I dont do it well on my own. Anyway, the result is the same. The house is looking reasonable at least company ready (no more apologies at the door for a messy house, no more not inviting someone in because of embarrassment), the kids are less stressed in the mornings because I am more organised...and who else has 3 loads of washing on the line by 9am, the kitchen spotless, the bathrooms cleaned and the floors swept?? LOL, and the schools are even getting notes back on time and communications books written in. Gradually gradually, things are starting to come together.
Now its just a matter of finding a job thats suitable..I want to be home for the kids after school. It was costing us $200 a week for after school care...so I was working a full day per week just to cover that cost. Hmmm...where to find the elusive dream job or to start a business of my own where I can work the hours that are suitable for us.
Stef had another good day at school yesterday. She is working very well at the moment and concentrating well. Good to hear. I am going to go to the school sometime next week to show them her DS program and to try to get them to use it too. She still won't wear a helmet for her bike riding lesson at school....no helmet no bike so she misses out. I think I will write a new social story for that and of course the public toilet issue. Will talk to the Occupational Therapist at the school....make a draft of it and then take it in with me when I go in.
Brent was a lot calmer yesterday.....certainly having rosters for computer times works for him. RULES RULE!
OK on with the work....need to do the accounting firm stuff ready for tomorrow's appointment! Music is blaring and I am in the mood for work!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
A week of self imposed deadlines!
This week I am finishing the supermarket stuff once and for all. If I took a picture of my loungeroom right now, you would see neat piles of papers all over it. Its driving me insane....but today I will have it all filed neatly away in the boxes ready to piff out of my fricking house! I have about 8-10 hours to do..and then meet with them on Monday to hand it over.
Thursday I have work to do with my accounting firm client...and that will be almost the end of stuff for this financial year just gone. I will be so glad to get rid of this stuff that is hanging around my neck.
I am starting to get back into better routines...the mountain of washing has gone finally......6 load yesterday and 5 today! Thankgoodness its windy so it will all dry now that it is all hung out. The rest of the house is pretty neat and clean for once....except for the kids bedrooms and the paper covered lounge (thats where my office is).
Brent was in a really defiant shitty mood yesterday. He thinks he as a birthright being the oldest child gets everything he wants like the good computer all the time......sorry pal, it doesnt work that way. It gets a little scary when he pushes me around as he is 4 inches taller and about 30 kg heavier now. Lets just say I have a sore arm and and a bruise on my shin. Grr... Bloody kid. Sometimes there is just no reasoning with him. Doesnt help that I am a bit iratable at the moment too. Just not sleeping very well..maybe 4-5 hours a night at most.
Stef had a good day at school yesterday....very happy all day. She really needs that routine. She did a bit of stuff using her Nintendo program yesterday. I just need to adapt the file a bit more to put in the Australian idiosyncracies. IE..Vegemite...Lollies instead of candy...Chips instead of Crisps...Just little things. I also need to put in some school work choices so that they can use it at there as well.
Anyway....on with the work.....no rest for the wicked!!
Thursday I have work to do with my accounting firm client...and that will be almost the end of stuff for this financial year just gone. I will be so glad to get rid of this stuff that is hanging around my neck.
I am starting to get back into better routines...the mountain of washing has gone finally......6 load yesterday and 5 today! Thankgoodness its windy so it will all dry now that it is all hung out. The rest of the house is pretty neat and clean for once....except for the kids bedrooms and the paper covered lounge (thats where my office is).
Brent was in a really defiant shitty mood yesterday. He thinks he as a birthright being the oldest child gets everything he wants like the good computer all the time......sorry pal, it doesnt work that way. It gets a little scary when he pushes me around as he is 4 inches taller and about 30 kg heavier now. Lets just say I have a sore arm and and a bruise on my shin. Grr... Bloody kid. Sometimes there is just no reasoning with him. Doesnt help that I am a bit iratable at the moment too. Just not sleeping very well..maybe 4-5 hours a night at most.
Stef had a good day at school yesterday....very happy all day. She really needs that routine. She did a bit of stuff using her Nintendo program yesterday. I just need to adapt the file a bit more to put in the Australian idiosyncracies. IE..Vegemite...Lollies instead of candy...Chips instead of Crisps...Just little things. I also need to put in some school work choices so that they can use it at there as well.
Anyway....on with the work.....no rest for the wicked!!
Monday, July 12, 2010
School Holidays are over......Thank heavens!
Today I feel so much better. Have had a couple of weeks feeling really a long way down. I'm not particularly sure why......just an accumulation of a few things. Not having a job affects me in ways that I really didnt expect it to. I have to be very careful though, I am a workaholic and like the feeling of being pushed to the limit. I just can't do that. The kids miss out on too much and so does our relationship.
I feel today that I have more routine. Getting up way to early I even saw the start of the soccer, getting the housework stuff done.....and 6 loads of washing (always that stuff here) all before 9am. I even did some bookwork. Just about to hit the books pretty hard. I HAVE to finish the supermarket stuff by Wednesday....then I can concentrate on either applying for new jobs or at least starting up a new business for myself. Its time to get my ass into gear and get my mojo back.
I have been so naughty on the diet front too...putting on 3kg in 2 weeks. I am making a concerted effort for the next month to stick like glue to losing weight and exercising. I do not want to be fat again!~
The kids are all ok. Melinda is disorganised like usual. I reminded her so many times to do her school holiday homework....did she do it.....NO! I have threatened that I will make her use her computer only for school work if she does not pull up her socks. Brent at least did one of the subjects....but not all. I hope he gets the work done by the end of the week. Stef was happy to be heading back to school..She certainly gets back to routine pretty quickly and is so much happier when she is in routine. Jack had a tantrum about taking ritalin tablets instead of capsules....Honestly....its like making him swallow a brick and they are so tiny. I must go to the chemist today to get the capsules.
Apart from that...busy doing bookwork today......I must finish it!
I feel today that I have more routine. Getting up way to early I even saw the start of the soccer, getting the housework stuff done.....and 6 loads of washing (always that stuff here) all before 9am. I even did some bookwork. Just about to hit the books pretty hard. I HAVE to finish the supermarket stuff by Wednesday....then I can concentrate on either applying for new jobs or at least starting up a new business for myself. Its time to get my ass into gear and get my mojo back.
I have been so naughty on the diet front too...putting on 3kg in 2 weeks. I am making a concerted effort for the next month to stick like glue to losing weight and exercising. I do not want to be fat again!~
The kids are all ok. Melinda is disorganised like usual. I reminded her so many times to do her school holiday homework....did she do it.....NO! I have threatened that I will make her use her computer only for school work if she does not pull up her socks. Brent at least did one of the subjects....but not all. I hope he gets the work done by the end of the week. Stef was happy to be heading back to school..She certainly gets back to routine pretty quickly and is so much happier when she is in routine. Jack had a tantrum about taking ritalin tablets instead of capsules....Honestly....its like making him swallow a brick and they are so tiny. I must go to the chemist today to get the capsules.
Apart from that...busy doing bookwork today......I must finish it!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Hanging in there......
Today I put 7 garbage bags of clothes out for collection by a charity.......at least 5 of them are Steve and my Fat Clothes......woohoo. I am so proud of how much weight we have both lost.....now to keep the momentum up to get down to goal weight!!
Got all the kids at home today. No school holiday program today as they wimped out on taking Stef on an excursion. Not that she is ever any trouble when she is out. Far from it, but they don't know that.
I have got her program ready to use for her nintendo.....its brilliant. I just need to add a few more pictures to it to make it so she can chose what she wants on her toast for breakfast and some lunch and dinner choices. After all, to not be able to say what you really want to eat would be so frustrating.
I am suffering from lack of sleep today. I dream so much when I give up smoking and its very scary dreams. I find I have to reset my visuals in order to get back to sleep. I think last night I put on a video at 1am and finally got back to sleep at 2.30am on the couch.
Got lots of work to do today.....I have to finish this supermarket shit once and for all....then I can move on.
Got all the kids at home today. No school holiday program today as they wimped out on taking Stef on an excursion. Not that she is ever any trouble when she is out. Far from it, but they don't know that.
I have got her program ready to use for her nintendo.....its brilliant. I just need to add a few more pictures to it to make it so she can chose what she wants on her toast for breakfast and some lunch and dinner choices. After all, to not be able to say what you really want to eat would be so frustrating.
I am suffering from lack of sleep today. I dream so much when I give up smoking and its very scary dreams. I find I have to reset my visuals in order to get back to sleep. I think last night I put on a video at 1am and finally got back to sleep at 2.30am on the couch.
Got lots of work to do today.....I have to finish this supermarket shit once and for all....then I can move on.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Living with intention!
OK, enough of drifing along. This has been a period of recharge, but now its time to move on to a new phase. Not sure what it will bring as yet. I really need to reset my goals for the next 100 days and beyond.
Goals that I have decided on so far.
1. To become a non-smoker again- I have had a year of chuffing away, but I can feel my body kicking up a stink about it. I have got my patches and I had my last cigarette at 10pm last night. I know its time to take control or let the higher power to do it for me...I cant do it on my own. Back to Nicotine Anon for the extra support I need. My vow though this time is rather than eat with cravings, I will be doing 5 minutes of aerobic exercise.
2. To lose 10 kg over the next 100 days. Oh it would be so nice to get down to my goal weight as quickly as possible, but realistically.. half a kilo to a kilo a week maximum is doable.
3. To find a good job that fits around the needs of my family and is rewarding financially and mentally.
4. To work on my writing...perhaps put some pieces in the paper. I want to reach out and let people know just what my girl lives with...the frustrations as a parent and her frustrations of not having a voice.
5. To plan a trip......not sure where yet.....but I think a trip like Italy....who knows when it will happen, but it will happen.
6. To gain far more help for Stef than we are getting.
7. To have the house decluttered and tidy.
8. To set aside time for more creative activities.
Ok, so there are my intentions....now to break it down to the smallest bits so that I can a little each day to reach my goals.
Kids are all ok. Jack has a nasty cold, the phlegm monster! Jack has always been a kid who produces lots and snorts and snuffles. Just hope he doesnt plan on sharing it around.
Stef spent yesterday just lounging around in her room playing with her nintendo ds. I think sometimes its good for her to do that. It recharges her batteries and makes it easier for her to cope with the next days.
They have school holiday program 3 days this week....Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. We might get to do something the other two days.
Brent goes to Vampire hours during school holidays...up all night and sleeps all day and Melinda stays up very late and sleeps til 1pm.
Ok, so my plan for the day is to do some house work and hang out the 5 loads of washing that didnt fit on the clothes lines yesterday.....then some baking for the kids for the week and maybe make some pasta. I love making homemade pasta and it really is cheap to make. The kids love it especially Melinda. Oh and then there is 20 shirts to iron lol.
Goals that I have decided on so far.
1. To become a non-smoker again- I have had a year of chuffing away, but I can feel my body kicking up a stink about it. I have got my patches and I had my last cigarette at 10pm last night. I know its time to take control or let the higher power to do it for me...I cant do it on my own. Back to Nicotine Anon for the extra support I need. My vow though this time is rather than eat with cravings, I will be doing 5 minutes of aerobic exercise.
2. To lose 10 kg over the next 100 days. Oh it would be so nice to get down to my goal weight as quickly as possible, but realistically.. half a kilo to a kilo a week maximum is doable.
3. To find a good job that fits around the needs of my family and is rewarding financially and mentally.
4. To work on my writing...perhaps put some pieces in the paper. I want to reach out and let people know just what my girl lives with...the frustrations as a parent and her frustrations of not having a voice.
5. To plan a trip......not sure where yet.....but I think a trip like Italy....who knows when it will happen, but it will happen.
6. To gain far more help for Stef than we are getting.
7. To have the house decluttered and tidy.
8. To set aside time for more creative activities.
Ok, so there are my intentions....now to break it down to the smallest bits so that I can a little each day to reach my goals.
Kids are all ok. Jack has a nasty cold, the phlegm monster! Jack has always been a kid who produces lots and snorts and snuffles. Just hope he doesnt plan on sharing it around.
Stef spent yesterday just lounging around in her room playing with her nintendo ds. I think sometimes its good for her to do that. It recharges her batteries and makes it easier for her to cope with the next days.
They have school holiday program 3 days this week....Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. We might get to do something the other two days.
Brent goes to Vampire hours during school holidays...up all night and sleeps all day and Melinda stays up very late and sleeps til 1pm.
Ok, so my plan for the day is to do some house work and hang out the 5 loads of washing that didnt fit on the clothes lines yesterday.....then some baking for the kids for the week and maybe make some pasta. I love making homemade pasta and it really is cheap to make. The kids love it especially Melinda. Oh and then there is 20 shirts to iron lol.
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